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I have Post Block Syndrome.

Lacrimosa live @ La Trastienda Club Montevideo.

23/09/10, one of the best days of my life.

Tilo Wolff, I loved meeting you. It was amazing, thank you.

Blind Killer

Killing the sadness with unloaded weapons
Two hearts separated by time
Hurting each other with unspoken words
He screams out his madness
And reached her ears like a bullet

The understanding is more than necessary
But his blinded eyes can't stare at the truth
Take this wound as a prove, a compensation
Scratching the chest of death with a smile on your lips
Slashing my body with tears in my cheeks

The corruption of love bonds us

Killing time without hesitation
She stared at his old pictures and moans
A rage unleashed revealing his true feelings
Can't staend the smell of forgiveness

If reality is about pain and longing, I choose to lie and smile
Nothing happened, it's never time to say goodbye
If nothing happens I can hold you and fall asleep in your arms

The understanding is more than necessary
But his blinded eyes can't stare at the truth
Take this wound as a prove, a compensation
Scratching the chest of death with a smile on your lips
Slashing my body with tears in my cheeks

Embracing death at night is what keeps me from dying
Slash my body while it's eaten by insects, I will scratch your chest of putrefaction.

Your revenge is my happiness.

Once more I failed.

Discovering the meaning of life costed me 4 dollars, but I always end up forgetting my amazing findings.

My deformed eyes.

Poupée Girl annoys me

I ALWAYS get the worst items ever.

Fuck

I'm not paying 48 dollars to get the same crap I already paid 48 dollars for.

I'm sick of you.

Why do you have to mess it all up everytime we talk?












What makes me stay with you? Why can't I go on?

Ayuda

Me encanta.

I hate it．

I hate when I wait for something for a loooong time and arrives as something unexpected.

"I know it's wrong, let's keep it a secret"

She woke up freezing in a bed that wasn't hers. Her tongue tastes blood and semen in her bruised lips.
Tries to move but both hands ands legs were tied up. Her eyes are blurry, she wants to scream but her voice was stolen... -Just lie there, like garbage, noone can help you, don't make it harder...- they kept repeating, as they grab a gun and point her in the forehead, as tears fell from her eyes, silently...
"Don't move, you only make it more painful" they kept repeating, as they raped her helpless body over and over. They hit her head until she fell asleep, unconcious.
That way they kept her quiet.

It's been almost 3 hours now and there she lies, hoping she was just dreaming.
But once again, she woke up freezing in a bed that wasn't hers.
This time she only tasted blood , her lips are swollen. She opened her eyes and looked around. She was alone now. She heard footsteps outside. Tried to fake it but they already know she's awake.
Tried to scream but her voice was stolen, her eyes are glassy, but this time she's ready, she'll stay still and make it easier, maybe that way they let her go...

"You seem to enjoy it, you quit struggling, let's do it harder then, I bet you'll like it" they said.
And ripped off her wounded body again. Over and over...
Tears fall from her eyes silent as the moon rises. Not a sound.

She wants to give up...

It's all dark, as dark as it was when she arrived there. She is being released but as she wakes up, she's pushed against a wall and grabbed by her streghtless arms.
"Get out of here bitch, you're worth nothing. Get your stuff and fade away forever" And they laughed.

Couln't cry, couldn't laugh, couldn't smile, couldn't shout.
But she could go... or so she thought.

"Let's give her a goodbye present, something to remeber us". As they laughed they hit her, over and over. They pulled her inside an old car and drove away from the place that will haunt her forever in her sleep. They left her where they found her. In that dark corner, away from any kind eyes that would see her when she was dragged and pushed into that old car...

She now walks back home, alone at 1.28 am, hoping she would wake up the next day and find out it was just a horrible nightmare...

Can I wake up now?

Please... I wanna wake up...

Please...

Ass raper dreamer

I take a look at the past week
While taking a hot shower
When I used to sell the body for a dream
I didn't realize it wasn't true
So kept wishing and biting my nails

Just a little more and I will be there
It's not happening
Scratching the walls, selling the body
For the dream that never comes true

Fooled by you, toyed with, ass-raped
I, left alone in the darkness
Cry for the last hope, the dream
That never comes true

Sell the body, sell the dignity
Give up the choice, give up the dignity
Leave behind the dream, leave behind the dignity
It's not happening

The ass-raped dreamer

Requecheando

Can you fill this out without lying?
I don't know I still haven't read the questions.

What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
Hamburguer.

Have you ever kissed anyone named Mathew?
No.

Where was your default picture taken?
I don't remember, I guess my room or something.

Can you play guitar hero?
Not really.

Last time you walked further than a block?
Today...

When was the last time you saw number 3 on your top friends?
What are you talking about? Thhis is for Myspace I suppose, so number 3 is... Kira I think, so today.

You could move somewhere else, would you?
¬¬ Of course.

Ever been kissed under fireworks?
I don't remember, but I doubt it.

Do you believe ex's can be friends?
Yeah, after at least a couple years or if I'm not interested anymore... otherwise, it hurts.

Do you like calling or texting better?
Calling.

How do you feel about Diet Dr Pepper?
What? There's no DrPepper here in Uruguay ¬¬

When was the last time you cried really hard?
Monday I think.

Where is your biological father right now?
In his computer chair sitting in front of the monitor like hypnotized.

Where are you at right now?
My room, in front of the pc.

What bed did you sleep in last night?
Mine.

Who took your profile picture?
I did.

Was yesterday better than today?
That kinda depends.

Can you live a day without TV?
Yeah...

Are you mad about anything?
Everything makes me mad lately.

Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
No.

Night out or night in?
Depends.

Would you share a drink with a stranger?
Probably not.

Have you ever thrown shoes on a telephone wire?
I don't sell drugs anymore.

What does the last text message in your inbox say?
"I'll stop by for a while to say hi, ok?"

How do you feel about your life right now?
I hate it.

Do you hate anyone?
Too many people maybe.

Do you talk dirty to people?
¿?

Will you have a valentine this year?
Not really...

Can you easily tell if someones fake?
Yeah sometimes...

How's your heart?
Shitty.

Has anyone ever called you perfect before?
Yes, everyone makes such mistakes.

What song is stuck in your head?
Inconvenient Ideal

Wanna have kids before you’re 30?:
I don't know, that depends on my partner (if he is "the one").

Name something you have to do tomorrow?:
Sleep?

Can you whistle?
Not really.

Do you sleep on your side, stomach, or back?
Side.

What gets in your way of your sleeping?
The hole in the matress.

Are your eyes the same color as your mom's or dad's?
I don't know... who cares?

Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
Yeah I guess...

Do you think too much or too little?
Too much.

Do you smile a lot?
No, just the necessary.

Are you happy with your life?
No.

Can you handle the truth?
I tend to get mad but yeah.

Do you get 8 hours of sleep everyday?
Not EVERY day... but mostly yes, more than 8.

Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
Not really...

Is there something you always wear?
Yeah, underwear for example... and my necklace :3

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Having dinner.

Have you ever crawled through a window?:
Yeah hahaha.

Do you like yourself?
That depends.

Have you ever dyed your hair?:
Yes, constantly.

Are you wearing a necklace?
Yes, Kaoru's necklace, all the time.

Are you an emotional person?
Yes

What's something that can always make you feel better?
Dir en grey, talking shit about others, eating, shopping.

Will this weekend be a good one?
I better have a nice weekend or next week you'll see (?).

What do you want right now?
Hold Kyo really tight?

Look behind you, what do you see?
Kyo

Have you ever worked in a food place?
No.

Whats on your schedule for tomorrow?
Going to the doctor?

Does anyone know your Myspace password?
Yes, unfortunately.

Have you dated anyone on your top 8?:
I have 5 friends in my top list, and haven't dated any of them.

I am back .3

to disturb you.