I'm worshipping you right now.

Y... después de que me diste casi 4000 pesos en medicación, te haría un monumento. Te amooooooooooooooooooooo sos lo más que hay.

Wet dreams.

 I usually DON'T HAVE wet dreams, NEVER. But strangely I had one 2 days ago, and the wet part reduces to 5 words but OH MY GOD it was hot.

Can't wait for thursday.

Buying makes me happy.

I bought a sewing machine (which I had to go change twice now, tomorrow is gonna be the last day I see the delivery van in my life I hope, I really wanna start sewing my designs) a black mini skirt which I already tuned up lol, a very cool black and red striped cutsew with boat neck and an amazing cardigan also in black and red stripes.I'm very happy about it. SOMETIMES after the rain comes the rainbow.

that's the cutsew I mentioned

I tried rice noodles. They're amazing. And I sang Dir en grey's Shokubeni voice solo in a rehersal from UnderaiN and it felt SO GOOD!! I wish I had the ability to sing. I envy people who can sing, even if they sing like shit and their lyrics suck, because I would give up a kidney to have the luck of being able to vomit all this anger, this pain, these feelings I keep locked inside myself.

Closer to Ideal

Day by day I wake up thinking "Today is gonna be a good day" and it always ends up being pure shit. Just like the shit in 2girls1cup. And I've got to swallow it all and pretend I love it, that my life is perfect, that I like myself, that I'm more than a pile of crap. I'm sick of lying and pretending. But I can't stop. And I can't get rid of this. I just hope it doesn't take over me...


The stitches were awesome. Thanks mom.

Despair

I can't do anything more than screaming out my unwanted pain, my despair, my unreachable joy. It's fading, and I know you will never care, you will never see it, you don't give a shit about this flood of tears and blood I spill because of you in the floor.

Where are you? Why aren't you with me now? What is it that I have to do to make you love me the way I love you. Don't you care about what you're doing to me? What you make me do for you? Please, I am begging you to come save me from myself. I'll be killing you over and over again everytime I kill my flesh. Forgive my foolishness, I'm not blaming you for being unaware of my existence. I'm just wishing I could resign to this and let go.

Poupée Girl ♥

 My poupée profile from here

Sayounara no hate- Sadie

Where can I go to?
Does my voice reach you?
In the clear, cloudless sky
I am alone, it tore me apart

Look, if I keep falling
Maybe I can become a little happy
I even forgot what love is
Laughed, because I was torturing myself

I was sick of this hypocrisy
What is it that you want?
My disappeared feelings
Turned into ash as I looked up into the sky

Good-bye my naivety
My sins, my love and my transcience
I woke up, chewing an orange
You held my left hand tight

Where can I go to?
Does my voice reach you?
In the clear, cloudless sky
I am alone, it tore me apart

I was afraid to get hurt and scared of being alone
Now it's raining but it will clear up
Good-bye
Does my voice reach you?

Good-bye my naivety
My sins, my love and my transcience
I woke up, chewing an orange
You held my left hand tight

I was afraid to get hurt and scared of being alone
Now it's raining but it will clear up
Good-bye
Does my voice reach you?

The wonderful days
This is how they all end



I never wanted it to end like this. 

Teriyaki Chicken w/pics!!

Made chicken again!! IT WAS DELICIOUS!!

I'm in love with cooking

Dorayaki!

The anko turned out a little harsh...? but it's delicious anyways!

Teriyaki Chicken!!

It turned out great, but I didn't take any pictures :( Too bad, I wanted to publish them... I will make dorayaki this weekend!! I'm so in love with Japanese food!!

I love making sushi.

Some time ago I found out that I love to cook. Yeah, I love to cook. Especially Japanese food... And for many people, big lunchs or dinners; that's really fun! Today I remembered I had bought some Sushi rice and I had Kanikama and Nori, so I went to Disco Fresh Market in a rush and got all the ingredients I didn't have at home and made a delicious Maki Sushi and some improvised Onigiri with the rice I had left that wasn't enough for a Maki.

The result:

Nori seaweed, Sushi rice, Philadelphia cheese, Crab & Salmon Kanikama

Tomorrow I might make Teriyaki chicken, I love cooking!!

Damn

I can't dress up my poupee, IT'S DRIVING ME CRAZY!

KKR~

Rape me now please.
Ok thanks bye.

I've just found out

That Daisuke from Kagerou and The Studs is dead. R.I.P.







I liked Kagerou :(

Broken hearted.

It turns into ashes and it's blowed by this everyday cold wind.



It was your choice to let go.

Los altos gatos

And the mental masturbation.