Double Suicide.

By double suicide I mean, body and soul. By body and soul, I mean heart and mind. By heart and mind, I mean feelings and thoughts. By feelings and thoughts, I mean love, hate, pain, longing, grief, loneliness, despair, happiness, life, joy, death, suffering, sadness, YOU. By love I mean hate, by hate I mean pain, by pain I mean longing, by longing I mean grief, by grief I mean loneliness, by loneliness I mean despair, by despair I mean happiness, by happiness I mean life, by life I mean joy, by joy I mean death, by death I mean suffering, by suffering I mean sadness, by Sadness I mean YOU.
But... what does YOU mean? 
By you I mean what you make me feel. Meaning all named above. You are my reason for living and at the same time for leaving.You are my body and soul, you are my heart and my mind, you are my feelings and thoughts, you are my body and soul.
You are my double suicide...